When You Turn 50, They Say You're "Renewed"

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Just Joey (or Princess McFloppyEars, as she's sometimes known) and I here at the house tonight as Chris is off recording a record with the Turtle Creek Chorale. I attended their rehearsals yesterday, and they had several bright lights and an HDTV camera going about as they are filming a documentary about the group. I tried to lose myself in the back, and I realized the the cough from my cold would keep me from going to a place where every sound would be scrutinized. *cough, cough*.

The title up there comes from a trivia question we had today at BW3's. Something about the stages in life, from some old pop psychologist book from the 1970's. I guess it's about as valid as anything else, right? I had a nice time today with Chris as we went to the pool here in his complex.

Last night there was a get together here at Chris' and there was a nice turnout of guys (and gal). it was really nice to be with them all, and I'm sorry that I ended up being an ass when I got mad at Joey's behavior. Joey's still a very bouncy puppy, and occasionally she'll get a little aggressive when people play with her. I was very concerned that people were having a good time (and that means I start to try to control everything) that i got upset. This part of my personality works well at work, but not so well in social situations. it sort of made for an unusual vibe.

I didn't ask for presents, but it was nice that I got a few. Paul brought me a CD with a drawing of myself that i'll have to upload, and a can of Red Bull. Yes, there's an inside joke there. I also got to meet famous author Naomi Nash, in town for the Romance Writers of America Convention. Ms. Nash looked surprisingly like Vance (drood), and she kindly gave me signed copies of two of her books, and a few promos for those that are coming out soon.

I really wish I had much more time to sit down and talk to Vance. I sort of interviewed him in front of the whole room (which was partially to get conversation started) and asked him several things I wanted to know. I hope I get the opportunity to chat with him again, there's lots more I want to know. I'm very glad I got to talk to Paul for a bit longer. i hope i helped him some, even if it was just to have him think about some things.

Chris has noticed that things are out of sorts for me this weekend. I try to cover it up, but he's getting to know me so well that he can see through my tries to cover it over. unfortunately, I don't think he'll every believe me when I say "I'm OK". I really hate the darker, moodier side of my personality, but I'm such a bad actor...everyone knows it. Occasionally it grows into a passive-aggressive streak. Everything's OK, right? Of course, if I just stop feeling so guilty about truly asking for what I want, perhaps it wouldn't be so bad. Still, something in me tells my Leo personality not to be so selfish. I try so hard not to bother people with my problems that I create one for myself.

I'm hungry, so I think I need to put Joey outside and start scrounging for food...apparently the recording session is lasting longer than they thought well, longer than I thought. Sadly Chris will have to go to bed as soon, for he has to go to work tomorrow. I think I'm going to try to cook for him tomorrow - could be scary.

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Please do. As Lyle Lovett sings, That's right, you're not from Texas, but Texas wants you anyway.

It was great getting to meet you. Thanks so much for the gifts...they are queued up right after my current Harry Potter read!

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