And now what?

Another long day. Why do I do this? I know I need to get more sleep. I sat around with Jeff and Paul, both from work, shooting the breeze and playing some darts at Paul's - Also in the same complex. Music and politics seemed to be the themes of the night. Paul brought up the whole gun debate - and I hate that. I always feel awkward about that subject, since Dad is a gun repairman and teaches conceled carry license classes. Still Don't care for guns personally, but it's ludacris to totally ban guns. It will never work.

Enough on that.

John is coming in tomorrow. There's excitement and trepidation about that. I guess I'm ready for this. He'll stay the night in my bed, and may stay Sunday as well. Sex seems to be on both of our minds, but I'm conserned that I don't know him, or his intentions well enough at this point. I'm overthinking everything again.

Otherwise, it will be young Marshall Bland's 3rd birthday party tomorrow. I spent an hour in Toys R Us today trying to find a good toy. Boy, you're getting Legos. I hope your parents (John and Dawn - no relation to the eariler John, but all fraternity brothers - co ed frat, folks) are glad I didn't get anything that sings, beeps or talks.

Night all!

Hmm. That was good.

Master Bland's birthday was a sucaess. The kids seem to like me - I'm not sure why. Keps making me think about adoption in the future - when things get more settled in my life. Interesting to note how cranky kids get when they're not the center of attention. Marshall kept opening presents, and the rest of the 2-5 set was all upset that they wern't getting any.

I had to meet john back at the apartment, so I left the party somewhat early. John's trying to balance some family relations. So, we talk, we do dinner, we talk, we head to the other room (it's a one-bedroom apartment folks, do the math). And then it's off to another family obligation (not a serious one, he and his sister are going out). That's a definite let down. More Trading Space watching for me (Go Crying Pam!)

I'm stil a bit confused as to how things stand. I guess it talk, getting to know each other, and getting to know each other.

He's going to return for the rest of the night and stay with me, so that's something to be looking forward to. For not, more Pam.