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I lost the job.
Today Chuck, who would have been my manager if I had gotten the trainer position took me off to a room and told me they liked me and my presentation, but didn't think I hit some of the points they wanted to see. He said that they chose another person, but I was definitely up there...and would have been selection "1-A."
1-A? Really, I'm flattered that I was your second pick, but hey, don't sugar coat, just tell me that I came in second and be done with it. Don't make it sound like I'm the first runner up and if the winner somehow manages to fall down a flight of stairs or end up on a porno website that I'd be elevated to the position.
He gave me some notes on my performance stating that there were some "pitfalls" set up by the managers that I didn't fully respond to. So I know now that a lot of the chattiness during the presentation was to see what I would and wouldn't respond to, and I didn't say specifically that I would take a question i couldn't answer and hold it until i could get a answer later (it's called a Parking Lot).
The problem is, I remember that, and I did say I would...I just didn't do it visually, putting it on the board.
Oh well, what are you going to do. They gave the job to someone they thought performed better, and Chuck told me that my tenure with the company was definitely a factor. This coming from two of the managers who evaluated me who have been with the company for a shorter time than me!
What hurts more is that I had a phone interview for a management job that also hasn't gone anywhere. It's funny, if you post a generic job description about a group that doesn't exist in our office yet, it's not right to expect your interviewees to be able to answer specific questions.
I felt embarrassed as I was chastised about not knowing about the group, but he provided few hints. I tried to pull experience I had that was generic, and try to work it into the little tidbits he gave me about the team's work, but I could tell he didn't care. Perhaps he already had someone he wanted to move from Rhode Island.
Tonight I feel I can't do anything right to be able to improve my lot with this company. I'm liked for the job that I do now, but I'm not happy with it. Unfortunately I feel like I need to get moving, need to build my career and excel. I just feel like I'm spinning my wheels right now.
I'm so wanting change, I should be careful not to just leap at anything right now, and I really should look at preparing myself better for this. I do try to do more, learn more, but when it comes down to trying to sell myself, I'm failing. Somehow I need to be able to tell people that I'm qualified, motivated and ready for the next step.
Perhaps I should just look elsewhere, maybe it's time to really make a leap and do something different, something far off the map. Financial Services doesn't seem to be going anywhere, but where? That's the question I can't seem to answer. I'd love to reinvent myself, but I think I need some sort of plan or goal. Maybe one will drop out of the sky.
Today Chuck, who would have been my manager if I had gotten the trainer position took me off to a room and told me they liked me and my presentation, but didn't think I hit some of the points they wanted to see. He said that they chose another person, but I was definitely up there...and would have been selection "1-A."
1-A? Really, I'm flattered that I was your second pick, but hey, don't sugar coat, just tell me that I came in second and be done with it. Don't make it sound like I'm the first runner up and if the winner somehow manages to fall down a flight of stairs or end up on a porno website that I'd be elevated to the position.
He gave me some notes on my performance stating that there were some "pitfalls" set up by the managers that I didn't fully respond to. So I know now that a lot of the chattiness during the presentation was to see what I would and wouldn't respond to, and I didn't say specifically that I would take a question i couldn't answer and hold it until i could get a answer later (it's called a Parking Lot).
The problem is, I remember that, and I did say I would...I just didn't do it visually, putting it on the board.
Oh well, what are you going to do. They gave the job to someone they thought performed better, and Chuck told me that my tenure with the company was definitely a factor. This coming from two of the managers who evaluated me who have been with the company for a shorter time than me!
What hurts more is that I had a phone interview for a management job that also hasn't gone anywhere. It's funny, if you post a generic job description about a group that doesn't exist in our office yet, it's not right to expect your interviewees to be able to answer specific questions.
I felt embarrassed as I was chastised about not knowing about the group, but he provided few hints. I tried to pull experience I had that was generic, and try to work it into the little tidbits he gave me about the team's work, but I could tell he didn't care. Perhaps he already had someone he wanted to move from Rhode Island.
Tonight I feel I can't do anything right to be able to improve my lot with this company. I'm liked for the job that I do now, but I'm not happy with it. Unfortunately I feel like I need to get moving, need to build my career and excel. I just feel like I'm spinning my wheels right now.
I'm so wanting change, I should be careful not to just leap at anything right now, and I really should look at preparing myself better for this. I do try to do more, learn more, but when it comes down to trying to sell myself, I'm failing. Somehow I need to be able to tell people that I'm qualified, motivated and ready for the next step.
Perhaps I should just look elsewhere, maybe it's time to really make a leap and do something different, something far off the map. Financial Services doesn't seem to be going anywhere, but where? That's the question I can't seem to answer. I'd love to reinvent myself, but I think I need some sort of plan or goal. Maybe one will drop out of the sky.
