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Last night I went over to Jerry's (goofycubb) house to watch The Amazing Race season Finale. It was good, and the outcome was as we wanted it. The editing was also good, keeping you wondering how close it really was.
Before the show we went out for dinner and Jerry had his very first Chicken Fried Steak - a staple of Texas cooking. Personally I needed the fried food since I could use some comfort food (not to say that I don't eat too much comfort food as is). Still, after being told yesterday at work that I wasn't doing the job they wanted me to do, I'm really wondering if I'm wanting to continue to do this job.
Sure, it's not that I've been loving this job for a while, but I've tolerated it for a while since it's not that difficult. Unfortunately my attempts to find something else haven't been going so well, so I'm already down on my abilities, and now to be put down again just further places me in a hole.
Still, what I was put down for, for not wanting to babysit adults who won't take care of their own stuff, for not trying to cheerlead people that have decided to give up, really makes me want to just chuck this whole thing. I'm tired of people who don't want to pull at least their own weight. Sure, I'm apathetic about the job, so I guess I'm headed for hypocrisy here, but damn it, I at least I do the job.
If i could, I would have fired one gal on my team already. I'm trying to build a case, but she's playing the system and skating by. I'm reviewing her, and she's arguing with everything I'm telling her. She's not performing up to standard, so she tries to argue about what a standard is, she's not producing quality work, so she's trying to complain about the quality rating system. I want to yell at her to take some responsibility for something, but I know she never will, and I know that I can't yell at her. I have to take it, and keep documenting things until such time an HR finally says I have enough of a case to take her down. It should happen in 2012, right after the holocaust.
The funny thing is, she's gunning for me, so I have to be on my best behavior now. I found out that she's been trying to tell the team that I'm gunning for her which is only true in the sense that her work standards demand it. If she'd do the work instead of playing the games, she'd be doing better. She's also got a husband who's one of these "women shouldn't work" types that's already mad she's having to work for the family, so I think he's trying to destroy her career, as well. It's a strange situation.
All this comes as I interviewed for another marketing position with the company on Friday. When I did, I found as i was trying to make sure I told my interviewer about myself I couldn't stop talking, and ended up rambling on and on. I'm not sure how big of a fool I made of myself I made, but I guess we'll see when they make their choice.
For now, it looks like it's back to the drawing board. Certainly it looks like I'm in the wrong spot for me, and I'm quickly tiring of it.
knepbear)Last night I went over to Jerry's (
goofycubb) house to watch The Amazing Race season Finale. It was good, and the outcome was as we wanted it. The editing was also good, keeping you wondering how close it really was. Before the show we went out for dinner and Jerry had his very first Chicken Fried Steak - a staple of Texas cooking. Personally I needed the fried food since I could use some comfort food (not to say that I don't eat too much comfort food as is). Still, after being told yesterday at work that I wasn't doing the job they wanted me to do, I'm really wondering if I'm wanting to continue to do this job.
Sure, it's not that I've been loving this job for a while, but I've tolerated it for a while since it's not that difficult. Unfortunately my attempts to find something else haven't been going so well, so I'm already down on my abilities, and now to be put down again just further places me in a hole.
Still, what I was put down for, for not wanting to babysit adults who won't take care of their own stuff, for not trying to cheerlead people that have decided to give up, really makes me want to just chuck this whole thing. I'm tired of people who don't want to pull at least their own weight. Sure, I'm apathetic about the job, so I guess I'm headed for hypocrisy here, but damn it, I at least I do the job.
If i could, I would have fired one gal on my team already. I'm trying to build a case, but she's playing the system and skating by. I'm reviewing her, and she's arguing with everything I'm telling her. She's not performing up to standard, so she tries to argue about what a standard is, she's not producing quality work, so she's trying to complain about the quality rating system. I want to yell at her to take some responsibility for something, but I know she never will, and I know that I can't yell at her. I have to take it, and keep documenting things until such time an HR finally says I have enough of a case to take her down. It should happen in 2012, right after the holocaust.
The funny thing is, she's gunning for me, so I have to be on my best behavior now. I found out that she's been trying to tell the team that I'm gunning for her which is only true in the sense that her work standards demand it. If she'd do the work instead of playing the games, she'd be doing better. She's also got a husband who's one of these "women shouldn't work" types that's already mad she's having to work for the family, so I think he's trying to destroy her career, as well. It's a strange situation.
All this comes as I interviewed for another marketing position with the company on Friday. When I did, I found as i was trying to make sure I told my interviewer about myself I couldn't stop talking, and ended up rambling on and on. I'm not sure how big of a fool I made of myself I made, but I guess we'll see when they make their choice.
For now, it looks like it's back to the drawing board. Certainly it looks like I'm in the wrong spot for me, and I'm quickly tiring of it.
