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And Where We You Saturday Night?
Jul. 1st, 2004 08:48 amI made a new friend at work this week. Big Ed has been working about two cubicle rows over from me for sometime (this isn't Brodie, the cute, married-with-children cubby who, due to the move, I sit much farther away from now (sad bear). Big Ed moved to our office after our Austin office closed. We've been friendly, but I didn't know that much about him. He keeps quiet and to himself.
Unfortunately he's been put right next to the biggest gossip in the office. Our little Metrosexual boy, Matt, has a problem with run-of-the-mouth disease. He has no filter, and no possible way of shutting up. Not only is he completely obnoxious, he has the mind of an 8 year old. He just graduated college, but he's been working for us part-time for years. now he's full time.
Actually, I was outed in the office (not big time, luckily, but it did happen) by Matt. when he was playing fantasy baseball with us, he stumbled upon a Yahoo Profile of mine that listed some Yahoo groups I subscribed to, and he proceeded to tell everyone else in our league. This was about three years ago, and is the reason no one will let Matt play anymore (besides being annoying, of course). I recovered, but it wasn't the way I wanted to come out.
So now Matt has his sights on Big Ed. I call him Big Ed because he's 6'5" with a not-quite in shape linebacker build. Roger (![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
aadroma) would be swooning. Frankly, I'm swooning a bit. He has dark hair and a goatee and deep set eyes. My gaydar pinged slightly, but I never really trust it because it's really bad. I really don't rely on it because I'd be embarrassed if it was wrong. I will admit some obsession, though, and I think Matt caught it.
Matt came up to me a few weeks ago and told me, "I think Big Ed is gay." I told him I didn't know. It was possible. Well, this was only a way to test me before he added, "I heard he was spotted at a gay bar over the weekend." I said, "OK, and that means?" "Oh, and he lives in the Montrose," Matt added. I said, "A lot of straight people live in the Montrose, that doesn't prove anything." Matt almost let it drop there, but he had to keep going, "Wait, you like him, don't you?"
Ugh. Damn that boy. I shot back, "If you want to know, why don't you ask him. I don't know."
Well, a few weeks later, and Big Ed and I start up a conversation about Matt, and how damn annoying he is. Big Ed has taken to wearing headphones most of the day to drown Matt out. I don't mention what Matt has been saying, because I don't want to have to ask him his status.
On Tuesday though, Matt had been asking other people, so I asked via email if Matt was bothering him. Of course he was. I got the nerve to ask Big Ed what he had done last weekend to see if he would have been at the pride parade, but he hadn't, but he told me he skipped some stuff to work on the party at his place Saturday night. Ahh...the way he put it was enough to give me an opening, so I told him I was in the parade on Saturday, and it opened the gate.
Yes, Big Ed is family, he's been in a relationship for five years and is a native of San Antonio. I'm getting the impression that he's not into bears, which is too bad, but I'll try not to hold it against him. I tried to avoid saying anything about being interested, but you know i wish I could.
I've noticed that i can easily get obsessed with people that I'm interested in. I really want to be their friend, and I'll work and sacrifice to do it. I can be very, very annoying . Now with being more out, and more open, if I see a cute guy, the whole wetworks starts to scheme how I'd like to get him into bed. It's actually rather sad that my brain works that was. It makes for really awkward situations when I'm trying to have a normal conversation, while my mind's working overtime on when I can make my next move. should I hit on him? Should I not? I over think everything, and in the end, it makes me miserable, when all I should be concentrating on is being nice, normal me.
Big Ed and I had lunch yesterday. I may have dropped a hint, but really, since Greg left, I'm just happy to have another family friend on the floor, and I should leave it at that. It's not that I think I'll get in trouble at work (or with Chris) if I did manage to lure Big Ed, but it shouldn't be about that. I didn't ask Big Ed about his sexuality a long time ago because I didn't want to embarrass myself if I was wrong, and I don't want to embarrass myself now because I find him attractive and he might not. We had a nice, easy lunch, and talked about work and the city, and Matt.
We got back, and came in the door at the same time, suddenly making Matt's flag go up like a hungry man at Pancho's. He immediately emailed me wanting to know if I knew something. I said no. He stated, "come on Mike, he's into men, you're into men." I emailed back (blind CC'ing Big Ed), "I don't know what he's into. If you want to know, you should ask him instead of speculating." Mat shot back, "Come on, you want to date him." "I have a partner, thank you very much." He couldn't stop, with the most offensive sentence I could think of, "Yeah, but you gay guys are always trying to trade up."
I told him that that was the wrong thing to say, and ended the conversation. Big Ed and I are holding on to several emails so we can build a case against Matt if he keeps going, or if he ends up outing Big Ed against his wishes. Big Ed says he wouldn't mind if the team knew, but he didn't want it coming out from Matt's blathering. It's amazing that Matt still works here, after he has totally tromped over one other coworker's Muslim beliefs awhile back.
Still, what's important is that i have a new friend. I'll try not to get to crazy over Big Ed, and end up alienating him because I'm so crazy. It's happened before with friends. Oh well. I've made myself late for work writing this. I need to go....
Unfortunately he's been put right next to the biggest gossip in the office. Our little Metrosexual boy, Matt, has a problem with run-of-the-mouth disease. He has no filter, and no possible way of shutting up. Not only is he completely obnoxious, he has the mind of an 8 year old. He just graduated college, but he's been working for us part-time for years. now he's full time.
Actually, I was outed in the office (not big time, luckily, but it did happen) by Matt. when he was playing fantasy baseball with us, he stumbled upon a Yahoo Profile of mine that listed some Yahoo groups I subscribed to, and he proceeded to tell everyone else in our league. This was about three years ago, and is the reason no one will let Matt play anymore (besides being annoying, of course). I recovered, but it wasn't the way I wanted to come out.
So now Matt has his sights on Big Ed. I call him Big Ed because he's 6'5" with a not-quite in shape linebacker build. Roger (
aadroma) would be swooning. Frankly, I'm swooning a bit. He has dark hair and a goatee and deep set eyes. My gaydar pinged slightly, but I never really trust it because it's really bad. I really don't rely on it because I'd be embarrassed if it was wrong. I will admit some obsession, though, and I think Matt caught it.Matt came up to me a few weeks ago and told me, "I think Big Ed is gay." I told him I didn't know. It was possible. Well, this was only a way to test me before he added, "I heard he was spotted at a gay bar over the weekend." I said, "OK, and that means?" "Oh, and he lives in the Montrose," Matt added. I said, "A lot of straight people live in the Montrose, that doesn't prove anything." Matt almost let it drop there, but he had to keep going, "Wait, you like him, don't you?"
Ugh. Damn that boy. I shot back, "If you want to know, why don't you ask him. I don't know."
Well, a few weeks later, and Big Ed and I start up a conversation about Matt, and how damn annoying he is. Big Ed has taken to wearing headphones most of the day to drown Matt out. I don't mention what Matt has been saying, because I don't want to have to ask him his status.
On Tuesday though, Matt had been asking other people, so I asked via email if Matt was bothering him. Of course he was. I got the nerve to ask Big Ed what he had done last weekend to see if he would have been at the pride parade, but he hadn't, but he told me he skipped some stuff to work on the party at his place Saturday night. Ahh...the way he put it was enough to give me an opening, so I told him I was in the parade on Saturday, and it opened the gate.
Yes, Big Ed is family, he's been in a relationship for five years and is a native of San Antonio. I'm getting the impression that he's not into bears, which is too bad, but I'll try not to hold it against him. I tried to avoid saying anything about being interested, but you know i wish I could.
I've noticed that i can easily get obsessed with people that I'm interested in. I really want to be their friend, and I'll work and sacrifice to do it. I can be very, very annoying . Now with being more out, and more open, if I see a cute guy, the whole wetworks starts to scheme how I'd like to get him into bed. It's actually rather sad that my brain works that was. It makes for really awkward situations when I'm trying to have a normal conversation, while my mind's working overtime on when I can make my next move. should I hit on him? Should I not? I over think everything, and in the end, it makes me miserable, when all I should be concentrating on is being nice, normal me.
Big Ed and I had lunch yesterday. I may have dropped a hint, but really, since Greg left, I'm just happy to have another family friend on the floor, and I should leave it at that. It's not that I think I'll get in trouble at work (or with Chris) if I did manage to lure Big Ed, but it shouldn't be about that. I didn't ask Big Ed about his sexuality a long time ago because I didn't want to embarrass myself if I was wrong, and I don't want to embarrass myself now because I find him attractive and he might not. We had a nice, easy lunch, and talked about work and the city, and Matt.
We got back, and came in the door at the same time, suddenly making Matt's flag go up like a hungry man at Pancho's. He immediately emailed me wanting to know if I knew something. I said no. He stated, "come on Mike, he's into men, you're into men." I emailed back (blind CC'ing Big Ed), "I don't know what he's into. If you want to know, you should ask him instead of speculating." Mat shot back, "Come on, you want to date him." "I have a partner, thank you very much." He couldn't stop, with the most offensive sentence I could think of, "Yeah, but you gay guys are always trying to trade up."
I told him that that was the wrong thing to say, and ended the conversation. Big Ed and I are holding on to several emails so we can build a case against Matt if he keeps going, or if he ends up outing Big Ed against his wishes. Big Ed says he wouldn't mind if the team knew, but he didn't want it coming out from Matt's blathering. It's amazing that Matt still works here, after he has totally tromped over one other coworker's Muslim beliefs awhile back.
Still, what's important is that i have a new friend. I'll try not to get to crazy over Big Ed, and end up alienating him because I'm so crazy. It's happened before with friends. Oh well. I've made myself late for work writing this. I need to go....
