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Ahh! Your Head A Splode!
Jan. 12th, 2004 11:07 pmWell, my back is aching tonight. I've been seeing this as more of a trend for a bit, and that's troubling. Except for being overweight, I have never really had any medical problems, but it looks like a few things are starting to take their toll. The knees and back have been giving me a little trouble and my doc has me on several meds to help me lose weight and stave off the onset of diabetes. Of course, there's the CPAP.
I guess it's all about taking care of yourself. I've been much better about taking care of myself in the last couple of years. Before a couple of years ago, I hadn't even been to the doc in about 10 years. I was one of your basic guys who knew that he didn't want to go. Still, trying to be healthy, well, healthier, costs money. One of the unfortunate side effects is the fact that prescription drugs, which I'm now on 5 of them (geez!) keep going up. Last year I had a $15 co-pay. This year it's gone up to $30. Life was meant to be good.
Well, the weekend came and went, didn't it? Mine was pretty boring, mostly sitting around, letting Tivo keep me company as I finally put away the Christmas lights. I also kept all of the Christmas cards I received, storing them with the rest of the Christmas stuff. I re-read each one of them, especially the one from Chris, which was special.
I went out to dinner with my college friends, John and Dawn, another couple that I've been best man for. We went out for Mexican with their two kids, Marshall, who's four and hyperactive and Cheyenne who's a little more than one.
Marshall adores me, probably because I'll listen. His mom likes me because I'll actually discipline him when it's needed. Sometimes the kid's hard to hold down. Apparently he got really excited when he was told in the afternoon that I'd be coming over.
He asked his parent's why I was always alone, and why I haven't brought a girlfriend over. Now you have to understand, Marshall thinks everyone has a girlfriend because John and Dawn know a lesbian couple who also have a young son. Dawn told him, "You know Amy and Crystal, well Uncle Mike doesn't have a girlfriend, he has a boyfriend, another boy."
Marshall asked me the boy's name, and I said it was Chris. John and Dawn chimed in with the boy, wondering when they'd get to meet him, since they've heard me talk about him before. It's nice to know that there's another welcoming house for us, besides Hans and Naima, who have already met Chris. It's also nice to see that there are parents who are willing to expose their children to the diversity of life, and not try to hide or even bias their children away from those differences.
Of course I hesitate to take Chris to their home, since it's a bit of a disaster area with two kids, two working parents, three cats, one dog and folks that have never been known to take care of cleaning the house. I have to admit that I popped a Claritin (yet more money for legal drugs), but let me tell you, after a couple of videogames the cat dander had gotten to me. Ouch.
I considered going out to one of the bars afterward, but with the allergies crying havoc, the lack of good parking, my once-again rising social anxiety, and that it was already after midnight, I drove around and then left to go back home. One day I'll get over it, maybe.
Still, I keep thinking there's some big challenge to it...strangely, I beginning to think that there's some maturity challenge to this...or strangely enough, that I'll be somehow more of a man by being able to walk into a gay bar. I guess I'm just trying to get up to speed with Chris and Matty and all, who have had much more time to get used to it all.
I'm also getting ready for Fiesta, later this week in Tucson. I'm both excited and apprehensive, sort of wondering how well I'll do in the social situations. It's nice to know that I'm not going there without friends, as several people I've met, or know from LJ will be there, but still I can't get away from the fact that here I go again into a less than comfortable situation.
I guess I'll have to find that Icon guy again...
I guess it's all about taking care of yourself. I've been much better about taking care of myself in the last couple of years. Before a couple of years ago, I hadn't even been to the doc in about 10 years. I was one of your basic guys who knew that he didn't want to go. Still, trying to be healthy, well, healthier, costs money. One of the unfortunate side effects is the fact that prescription drugs, which I'm now on 5 of them (geez!) keep going up. Last year I had a $15 co-pay. This year it's gone up to $30. Life was meant to be good.
Well, the weekend came and went, didn't it? Mine was pretty boring, mostly sitting around, letting Tivo keep me company as I finally put away the Christmas lights. I also kept all of the Christmas cards I received, storing them with the rest of the Christmas stuff. I re-read each one of them, especially the one from Chris, which was special.
I went out to dinner with my college friends, John and Dawn, another couple that I've been best man for. We went out for Mexican with their two kids, Marshall, who's four and hyperactive and Cheyenne who's a little more than one.
Marshall adores me, probably because I'll listen. His mom likes me because I'll actually discipline him when it's needed. Sometimes the kid's hard to hold down. Apparently he got really excited when he was told in the afternoon that I'd be coming over.
He asked his parent's why I was always alone, and why I haven't brought a girlfriend over. Now you have to understand, Marshall thinks everyone has a girlfriend because John and Dawn know a lesbian couple who also have a young son. Dawn told him, "You know Amy and Crystal, well Uncle Mike doesn't have a girlfriend, he has a boyfriend, another boy."
Marshall asked me the boy's name, and I said it was Chris. John and Dawn chimed in with the boy, wondering when they'd get to meet him, since they've heard me talk about him before. It's nice to know that there's another welcoming house for us, besides Hans and Naima, who have already met Chris. It's also nice to see that there are parents who are willing to expose their children to the diversity of life, and not try to hide or even bias their children away from those differences.
Of course I hesitate to take Chris to their home, since it's a bit of a disaster area with two kids, two working parents, three cats, one dog and folks that have never been known to take care of cleaning the house. I have to admit that I popped a Claritin (yet more money for legal drugs), but let me tell you, after a couple of videogames the cat dander had gotten to me. Ouch.
I considered going out to one of the bars afterward, but with the allergies crying havoc, the lack of good parking, my once-again rising social anxiety, and that it was already after midnight, I drove around and then left to go back home. One day I'll get over it, maybe.
Still, I keep thinking there's some big challenge to it...strangely, I beginning to think that there's some maturity challenge to this...or strangely enough, that I'll be somehow more of a man by being able to walk into a gay bar. I guess I'm just trying to get up to speed with Chris and Matty and all, who have had much more time to get used to it all.
I'm also getting ready for Fiesta, later this week in Tucson. I'm both excited and apprehensive, sort of wondering how well I'll do in the social situations. It's nice to know that I'm not going there without friends, as several people I've met, or know from LJ will be there, but still I can't get away from the fact that here I go again into a less than comfortable situation.
I guess I'll have to find that Icon guy again...
