Thanks! I know that I get to choose and make decisions there. It's my body and my emotions. The thing is, I do have a feeling that I must live up to expectations. That I must be able to know what to do to satisfy my partner, etc. When I was with John T recently, I get feeling bad because I was very nervous and insecure about what was happening. I knew that I wanted to be with him, and I wanted to be intimate with him, but I had a hard time being comfortable and thought that I was messing up the experience for him. Insecurities abound.
Luckily he was incredibly nice and patient with me. It's going to take that kind of person for a while.
I'll be interested to hear about your experience at the bear-run. It may be a good barometer. Let me know when you're back in Texas - perhaps we can head for some coffee some time!
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
timeasmymeasure
no subject
Date: 2003-01-09 06:27 am (UTC)Luckily he was incredibly nice and patient with me. It's going to take that kind of person for a while.
I'll be interested to hear about your experience at the bear-run. It may be a good barometer. Let me know when you're back in Texas - perhaps we can head for some coffee some time!