Good Thing, Bad Thing

[eggwards]

Good thing

I guess it comes from living in a flat city but I still get a little child-like wonder and glee driving up the crest of a hill at night and see all of the twinkling lights of the city below. Silly, I know, but it's still magical to me.

Bad thing

Being with your boyfriend and your bad decides to start hurting again. I guess my Dad really did put some of that blasted John Wayne mentality in me - try never to show when you're hurting, but of course, I'm too much of a wimp to actually do that, so I just get angry at myself for showing weakness. I guess the big problem is having your back hurting and not wanting to make your partner feel like he found you at the bad end of a used car lot.

I think I'm frozen on this couch, if I move, the pain will start all over again, with all of the shouting and cursing and the crap. Junk I really don't want Chris to see, and I don't want him to worry about when he has his big TCC performance tonight and is concerned about that. I know, it's a petty thing to be worried about, but that's the way my mind works sometimes.

Ow.

Comments

[fzks-cub.livejournal.com]

*hug*
I hope your back's feeling better by now...

And you've gotta learn to let your guard down, especially for Chris; that's how you grow closer. Besides, do you think that he would be so worried that it'd affect his performance?
From what I've seen, I don't think Chris would ever think he got you at the bad end of a used car lot. :p

*gives bear lots of aspirin and back rubs*

Almost surrounded by mountains!

[spargel.livejournal.com]

In Vancouver BC, I am surrounded on 2 sides by mountains. You get used to them being there and even depend on them for navigation (I get so lost in those flat places!).

To drive up to a crest and look down at the city and the ocean, it is still magical.

I have a bad habit of not showing my pain or emotions as well, but I guess after 6 years, Justin can read me very well even if I am trying to hide.

Hope you feel better soon!