Back, to the Future.
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demoncleanernha very happy birthday!
Other people were answering this the other day, so I took some time to answer; still, it’s a pretty good review of 2002.
Five Things that 2002 taught me:
1. I can be independent and live in the big city.
2. People can and are attracted to me. What a surprise.
3. I’m getting better about liking myself. Confidence is building. Still, there are issues…I will deal with. (Hey, I actually lost weight this year!!!)
4. I am so damn naïve when it comes to the gay community. I’m 5 to 10 years behind everyone else. How old can you still fell cubbish?
5. I still like work, but I think I’ve learned as much as I can in my current position. I’m burning out. I need to be re-inspired.
Five personally significant events of 2002:
1. Moving back into town, which allows myself to get out more.
2. Traveling to Montreal for the Astros/Expos game and Pride by myself, and finding a great guide to the Village.
3. Hooking up with John T.
4. Hooking up with John T. again. (Seriously! Not shying away from going further and trying to see where this all may lead. This is probably the most significant piece of personal development this past year)
5. The death of my grandmother ends a 2-year season of loss for my family and me.
Five things I want to do in 2003:
1. Get out more in the community. Explore more about the life I haven’t led. Make more gay friends. Travel to a bear run.
2. Work out more and get stronger. For myself, not to impress others.
3. See where the relationship with John T. goes.
4. Get more sexually active and perhaps experimental. (whee!)
5. Look for opportunities to make a job change – not necessarily to another company, but perhaps a new position.
Five things I don't want to do in 2003:
1. Lose another person I’m close too.
2. Let my needs to be comfortable, and sometimes isolated keep me from getting out and trying some new things.
3. Feeling lonely. Get out and do something about it. You have friends, damnit!
4. Stay in place in my job. It’s time for a challenge.
5. Be scared of change in my life.
Five people who I'd like to know better in 2003:
1. John T., of course. I have know IDEA what will happen, but here's to the ride...
2. Tom, akainvisiblebear, because although several situations are different, I totally understand several of the emotions he expresses in his prolific journal.
3. Ray, akapaganbear, who’s story and beliefs fascinates me and, at least from his writings, seems to be a really beautiful soul (and the pictures are sexy, too).
4. Jeff from work, who is a really good guy, but sadly, straight.
5. Alex, akadarke, and several other LJer’s whom I’m getting to know, including, but not limited to theevilnub, bigrock, ericdabear, ilorsodirettore, jtinstc, pornocuband so many more - I should stop. You all have great stories and could probably teach me a lot. Here’s hoping I’ll meet some of you in 2003!
demoncleanernha very happy birthday!Other people were answering this the other day, so I took some time to answer; still, it’s a pretty good review of 2002.
Five Things that 2002 taught me:
1. I can be independent and live in the big city.
2. People can and are attracted to me. What a surprise.
3. I’m getting better about liking myself. Confidence is building. Still, there are issues…I will deal with. (Hey, I actually lost weight this year!!!)
4. I am so damn naïve when it comes to the gay community. I’m 5 to 10 years behind everyone else. How old can you still fell cubbish?
5. I still like work, but I think I’ve learned as much as I can in my current position. I’m burning out. I need to be re-inspired.
Five personally significant events of 2002:
1. Moving back into town, which allows myself to get out more.
2. Traveling to Montreal for the Astros/Expos game and Pride by myself, and finding a great guide to the Village.
3. Hooking up with John T.
4. Hooking up with John T. again. (Seriously! Not shying away from going further and trying to see where this all may lead. This is probably the most significant piece of personal development this past year)
5. The death of my grandmother ends a 2-year season of loss for my family and me.
Five things I want to do in 2003:
1. Get out more in the community. Explore more about the life I haven’t led. Make more gay friends. Travel to a bear run.
2. Work out more and get stronger. For myself, not to impress others.
3. See where the relationship with John T. goes.
4. Get more sexually active and perhaps experimental. (whee!)
5. Look for opportunities to make a job change – not necessarily to another company, but perhaps a new position.
Five things I don't want to do in 2003:
1. Lose another person I’m close too.
2. Let my needs to be comfortable, and sometimes isolated keep me from getting out and trying some new things.
3. Feeling lonely. Get out and do something about it. You have friends, damnit!
4. Stay in place in my job. It’s time for a challenge.
5. Be scared of change in my life.
Five people who I'd like to know better in 2003:
1. John T., of course. I have know IDEA what will happen, but here's to the ride...
2. Tom, aka
invisiblebear, because although several situations are different, I totally understand several of the emotions he expresses in his prolific journal.3. Ray, aka
paganbear, who’s story and beliefs fascinates me and, at least from his writings, seems to be a really beautiful soul (and the pictures are sexy, too).4. Jeff from work, who is a really good guy, but sadly, straight.
5. Alex, aka
darke, and several other LJer’s whom I’m getting to know, including, but not limited to theevilnub, bigrock, ericdabear, ilorsodirettore, jtinstc, pornocuband so many more - I should stop. You all have great stories and could probably teach me a lot. Here’s hoping I’ll meet some of you in 2003!
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A surprise...
Thanks, though. *grins*
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Date: 2003-01-02 04:43 am (UTC)Age has little to do with being a cub, it really a state of mind...other than that, you can be whatever you want to be! It's nice to be part of the gay community...but if you're behind you aren't missing much... you should be aware of your rights and on issues. Subscribing to the Advocate will do that... but a large part of the "gay" community are labels, cattiness and rejection. Twinks still hold the power and the attitude as you've learned...get involved in the bear community. Hang out with some smart bears. It's good to network through LJ...my gosh you have Henare on your friends list...In my mind he's a legend -- he was there at the beginning and birth of the bear movement! What a great resource to tap.
But you have to get human contact...the internet can isolate you. The free flow of ideas and personal interaction is an essential part of understanding the gay community. If you don't know it, check out http://www.resourcesForBears.com/ for information about bear clubs and activities. La Fiesta de Los Osos is happening in January, International Bear Rendezvous in February. You don't seem to have any bear groups in Houston, but if you don't mind being around chubs, there's http://www.houstonbigmensclubs.com
If you are shy (like I am), I've found that some Bear groups can be rather cliquish, while big men's groups/girth and mirth clubs seem to be more inclusive. Growing up chubby creates a lot of insecurity...so at chub events everyone seems to be overcoming shyness. It's just a good way to meet people, gay people! (Hey, I'm the Webguy for Girth and Mirth Long Beach, http://www.girthandmirth.com and have to plug the big men's groups!) And if you travel to a bear run, the more sex part will follow. Likewise, consider something like Tons of Fun in the Sun (Orlando) in February or Big Bash (Palm Springs) in March. Big Bash is held at a gay clothing optional resort, so if you've ever had an issue with body image, believe me, this is the place to be (a similar event occurs in October and a Bear Event in September at the same resort). You'll meet the nicest people. You can go crazy with the sex...or play it conservative. The free portion of http://www.chubnet.com is an invaluable resource for big men's events.
Finally, you really seem to have some great friends. There's no excuse for you being lonely. Part of being a friend is keeping other people company, thus keeping them from being lonely. Inviting friends over, or out is something that a friend does. Enough preaching! Sorry about that...
Wishing you a wondrous, growth filled, love filled, sex filled, eventful, glorious new year!
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Date: 2003-01-02 10:08 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-01-04 06:55 am (UTC)Howdy :)
Date: 2003-01-02 10:26 am (UTC)If you really want to learn about me...ask away or get *really* brave and wander through my LJ history .
*hugs* *tugs*
Re: Howdy :)
Date: 2003-01-04 07:00 am (UTC)So, indirectly, you got me addicted to LJ. :-)
I guess I'm working on what the right questions are, but they'll come soon enough. For a start, when's SJ coming back up?