Even If Things Get Heavy

[eggwards]

I continue to be a child in a man's body...an overgrown man in fact.

For a long time, I've been lamenting this fact, having trouble reconciling the fact that I get excited, like I did as a six-year old looking through the Sears Christmas Wish Book at the latest offerings, and making a list to give to Santa.

Then comes the disappointment when Santa doesn't bring you exactly what you want. I unfortunately find I still experience the same emotions, though the catalog has changed, greatly.

I keep expecting that somewhere the hormones will stop kicking in, and I'll be a mature man, making rational decisions, and not regretting my over-expectant hopes.

Of course I'd probably be mindlessly boring if it were to come to that. The endless beating up of my own ego would just be supplanted with a dull white noise blur. Sometimes emotions can be for the good.

"And we'll all float on ok"...Modest Mouse

Comments

[bobo-dreams.livejournal.com]

well be happy to be a child in a mans body....and overgrown ::and very cute:: one at that. i always feel a man who can get excited like that...whom you can go into a store and get all giddy and touchy seeing all the cool new toys and widgets...thats the kind of man id want to hang out with and date and what not. my bf jon is a big kid at heart and that is something i love and adore....enjoy it...and we'll enjoy watching your joy.

Ryan

"if...growing up....means being like you...well i....i dont want to..."
from "I Don't Wanna Grow Up: from the Descendants