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Just Since You Are Near
Mar. 13th, 2006 11:57 pmI wouldn't necessarily say that absence makes the heart grow fonder, but I do find that my thoughts of Chris during the day have changed slightly. There's a very big difference in having that tug of wanting to be together, and not physically able to be so, and the knowledge that you'll see each other when the day ends - even if it's a long day, as many have been lately.
It's very reassuring to call and talk about plans for dinner each night. It's also nice to chat about the day, and actually get to see his face when you do so, and not struggle to hear his voice because of your crappy cell carrier.
I enjoy that we can share little touches here and there. sometimes they are long hugs, others just a scritch, but still, it's a little moment, even if it was thought out or not.
I guess one could say that being around each other would make those moments much less special than when we were only seeing each other every couple of weeks, and I guess that's true, but it would be even worse if it came down to taking those moments for granted. I hope I can always keep it heartfelt and honest and loving.
I know, it's the sappiest thing you've ever heard, so I'll balance it with this, there are occasions where I do feel that I need to be alone, and often that's more to recharge. I think Chris has the same needs. sometimes it's just enough to leave him in the office and go watch some TV downstairs, or occasionally I'll wait after work a little bit and read, just to clear out everything. I guess that you learn to balance, and lately, my life has been a bit upside down.
Still, Chris has been good about the changes, and reassuring me about it all, letting me ease into my new life - even thought I still get the feeling from time to time that it's all going to be over, and I'll have to go back to Houston and once again be away from my baby.
Still, it's not that way, and it's lovely each night when we kiss and cuddle, then both turn to the night tables near by and put on our CPAP masks to go to sleep.
I should put a picture of Joey the Dog in, just so this post could be extra sweet, right?
It's very reassuring to call and talk about plans for dinner each night. It's also nice to chat about the day, and actually get to see his face when you do so, and not struggle to hear his voice because of your crappy cell carrier.
I enjoy that we can share little touches here and there. sometimes they are long hugs, others just a scritch, but still, it's a little moment, even if it was thought out or not.
I guess one could say that being around each other would make those moments much less special than when we were only seeing each other every couple of weeks, and I guess that's true, but it would be even worse if it came down to taking those moments for granted. I hope I can always keep it heartfelt and honest and loving.
I know, it's the sappiest thing you've ever heard, so I'll balance it with this, there are occasions where I do feel that I need to be alone, and often that's more to recharge. I think Chris has the same needs. sometimes it's just enough to leave him in the office and go watch some TV downstairs, or occasionally I'll wait after work a little bit and read, just to clear out everything. I guess that you learn to balance, and lately, my life has been a bit upside down.
Still, Chris has been good about the changes, and reassuring me about it all, letting me ease into my new life - even thought I still get the feeling from time to time that it's all going to be over, and I'll have to go back to Houston and once again be away from my baby.
Still, it's not that way, and it's lovely each night when we kiss and cuddle, then both turn to the night tables near by and put on our CPAP masks to go to sleep.
I should put a picture of Joey the Dog in, just so this post could be extra sweet, right?
