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Boiling Point
Dec. 29th, 2005 11:59 pmToday I felt bad running out of work for an eye exam appointment when my team was still working. We're understaffed for the holidays, and once again I'm having to defend us, telling people we really do have responsibilities different from other teams, and we can't swing out to help others at this time. Year end has hit us hard this year.
My manager told me in private that she was upset that people weren't working at their top speed, but I had to tell her that she was wrong, we've just been getting more work in areas that take a longer time, plus we've been getting more calls with requests for research and all. Despite the layoffs that took out a lot of management, we lost a lot of staff this year. Actually working people in the trenches. when the going gets tough, we're now not able to handle it the way we could a year ago. I'm worried that it will continue to be tough as we go into tax season this year, and try to integrate three different departments into one at the same time.
I'm kind of mad that I didn't get on the integration team that I wanted, the one that will determine how to restructure teams and how our work will be processed, and by whom. I guess it's no surprise that i have a vision in my head how I want it to be done, and I want to push those ideas onto the others. I know there's some teams that don't really have a purpose, and some that need to be placed side-by-side with others for their similarities.
Personally my own team is one that is in the wrong place right now. We were placed with a data processing team that does very different things from us. We deal with a specialized couple of products and have very senior teammembers. My new boss doesn't understand us in the slightest and doesn't seem to care. He has been mostly sick, possibly to hypochondriac status, according to his own team. He's been out lately, so it's just the same as if he were here, except he's not telling me about his gallbladder.
Of course I've been tired of the job before and often, and I've mentioned it many times in this journal, but these last few months have been exceptionally difficult, and the whole thing seems going down the tubes. There's still more talk about further restructuring and cost-cutting not so much for performance, but for our stock price, which drives everything. I try to put a good face on in front of my crew, but the reports that come out showing our company is consistently bleeding assets, I can' help to be worried.
I started this year with a manager who was extremely controlling and didn't think I could run the team. She put me on menial tasks and took the challenging ones for herself. She's moved on, but her new position still causes problems for me as she's on the marketing side of the product we service. I constantly have fights with her, and will not back down. Our second manager was coming up with plans that sounded good, but had no reason to back them up. He was trying to look good, coming up with things that would never get completed. Still, I got the chance to start taking the reins, and then he was laid off. My new one, he's already admitted that he's bitten off more than he can chew, so personally, I have made it my mission to run the show without him. He's my leader in name only. This may come back to haunt me, but I'm not worried. If the team runs right, it will be all of my making, and I'll be satisfied.
The cluelessness of most of the management staff leads me to believe the whole place is adrift. A company looking for a purpose and reason. It's not inspiring, and I'm sure we'll see more leave throughout 2006.
One of those people will be me. I can't say exactly when, I don't know. I'm still looking for opportunities elsewhere, and I'm hoping I've got a couple of things on the burners. We'll see. One thing I did promise, is that I told Chris, I will not sign another lease at this apartment complex, if I still work at the same place. who knows, maybe my san Antonio lead will come through, maybe not. If it means in June I move to Dallas without a job, well so be it, but really, I am not going to be happy here with the status quo. Things will change
So it's time to take stock, and do things like make sure I use up all my benefits...and I have two days to buy some new glasses this year, so I can get some sunglasses next year. silly, but i might as well do what i can, right? who knows what i'll be able to get later.
My manager told me in private that she was upset that people weren't working at their top speed, but I had to tell her that she was wrong, we've just been getting more work in areas that take a longer time, plus we've been getting more calls with requests for research and all. Despite the layoffs that took out a lot of management, we lost a lot of staff this year. Actually working people in the trenches. when the going gets tough, we're now not able to handle it the way we could a year ago. I'm worried that it will continue to be tough as we go into tax season this year, and try to integrate three different departments into one at the same time.
I'm kind of mad that I didn't get on the integration team that I wanted, the one that will determine how to restructure teams and how our work will be processed, and by whom. I guess it's no surprise that i have a vision in my head how I want it to be done, and I want to push those ideas onto the others. I know there's some teams that don't really have a purpose, and some that need to be placed side-by-side with others for their similarities.
Personally my own team is one that is in the wrong place right now. We were placed with a data processing team that does very different things from us. We deal with a specialized couple of products and have very senior teammembers. My new boss doesn't understand us in the slightest and doesn't seem to care. He has been mostly sick, possibly to hypochondriac status, according to his own team. He's been out lately, so it's just the same as if he were here, except he's not telling me about his gallbladder.
Of course I've been tired of the job before and often, and I've mentioned it many times in this journal, but these last few months have been exceptionally difficult, and the whole thing seems going down the tubes. There's still more talk about further restructuring and cost-cutting not so much for performance, but for our stock price, which drives everything. I try to put a good face on in front of my crew, but the reports that come out showing our company is consistently bleeding assets, I can' help to be worried.
I started this year with a manager who was extremely controlling and didn't think I could run the team. She put me on menial tasks and took the challenging ones for herself. She's moved on, but her new position still causes problems for me as she's on the marketing side of the product we service. I constantly have fights with her, and will not back down. Our second manager was coming up with plans that sounded good, but had no reason to back them up. He was trying to look good, coming up with things that would never get completed. Still, I got the chance to start taking the reins, and then he was laid off. My new one, he's already admitted that he's bitten off more than he can chew, so personally, I have made it my mission to run the show without him. He's my leader in name only. This may come back to haunt me, but I'm not worried. If the team runs right, it will be all of my making, and I'll be satisfied.
The cluelessness of most of the management staff leads me to believe the whole place is adrift. A company looking for a purpose and reason. It's not inspiring, and I'm sure we'll see more leave throughout 2006.
One of those people will be me. I can't say exactly when, I don't know. I'm still looking for opportunities elsewhere, and I'm hoping I've got a couple of things on the burners. We'll see. One thing I did promise, is that I told Chris, I will not sign another lease at this apartment complex, if I still work at the same place. who knows, maybe my san Antonio lead will come through, maybe not. If it means in June I move to Dallas without a job, well so be it, but really, I am not going to be happy here with the status quo. Things will change
So it's time to take stock, and do things like make sure I use up all my benefits...and I have two days to buy some new glasses this year, so I can get some sunglasses next year. silly, but i might as well do what i can, right? who knows what i'll be able to get later.
