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The Exposition (what a show!)
Nov. 10th, 2003 09:17 amI left a couple of rather cryptic posts over the weekend, so I thought I'd address them.
The first one was the one about standards that I posted Friday night and got several good, and varied responses. I thank people for their advice.
That one comes from work. I was upset at myself for frittering the day and the week not really doing much of substance. In fact, I surfed the web a lot last week, and guess what? No-one cared or caught me. At the moment I don't have a major project going on so I'm coasting, just watching productivity levels and babysitting. I feel that I should be doing so much more, but I'm failing to find any sense of purpose in this job.
The fact is, I could have practically no standards for myself and still skate through this job. Some might say that's great! Just ride the gravy train, but I can't. I need to feel productive, that I'm actually working. That's were standards come into play. If I feel I should be doing something, motivating, improving, teaching, learning, SOMETHING. I leave every night hollow and tired. This job has lost it's usefulness (besides paying the bills, of course) and I feel awful. I want to be challenged. I want to grow and learn, and I want to direct others. I don't even have that to do now, they've all been with us for a while.
The job could shine like silver all it wants, but it's just aluminum.
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On the other front, sexual exploits were being discussed, and well, it's just unusual to hear people talk about yourself, when you don't think you have much of a history. Really, one of the other participants was talking about it to a friend of Chris'. I won't go into much detail, since I don't think I can really tell stories over this medium that involve other LJ'ers. You'll just have to get that from me in person. It won't be difficult, trust me.
I did write about it in this Journal a little back in February, when it happened. Here's to doing something that others found memorable. I sure did.
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Lastly, I did do a couple of things this weekend. I went to the University of Houston's homecoming game. Good to see that we're still packing them in, drawing a small crowd. The alumni band consisted of 30 people. Well, maybe not even that. Only 7 of us were from my band era (late 80's early 90's). The university isn't exactly good at bringing people back. Such is the way of a commuter campus.
I also went to the Texas Renaissance Festival. I have a few pictures, so I'll post that later. It was a nice, sunny, cool day in Texas and I'm glad i got out of the house, even if I went alone.
Lord, Help me get through this week so I can see my baby...
The first one was the one about standards that I posted Friday night and got several good, and varied responses. I thank people for their advice.
That one comes from work. I was upset at myself for frittering the day and the week not really doing much of substance. In fact, I surfed the web a lot last week, and guess what? No-one cared or caught me. At the moment I don't have a major project going on so I'm coasting, just watching productivity levels and babysitting. I feel that I should be doing so much more, but I'm failing to find any sense of purpose in this job.
The fact is, I could have practically no standards for myself and still skate through this job. Some might say that's great! Just ride the gravy train, but I can't. I need to feel productive, that I'm actually working. That's were standards come into play. If I feel I should be doing something, motivating, improving, teaching, learning, SOMETHING. I leave every night hollow and tired. This job has lost it's usefulness (besides paying the bills, of course) and I feel awful. I want to be challenged. I want to grow and learn, and I want to direct others. I don't even have that to do now, they've all been with us for a while.
The job could shine like silver all it wants, but it's just aluminum.
______________________
On the other front, sexual exploits were being discussed, and well, it's just unusual to hear people talk about yourself, when you don't think you have much of a history. Really, one of the other participants was talking about it to a friend of Chris'. I won't go into much detail, since I don't think I can really tell stories over this medium that involve other LJ'ers. You'll just have to get that from me in person. It won't be difficult, trust me.
I did write about it in this Journal a little back in February, when it happened. Here's to doing something that others found memorable. I sure did.
___________________________
Lastly, I did do a couple of things this weekend. I went to the University of Houston's homecoming game. Good to see that we're still packing them in, drawing a small crowd. The alumni band consisted of 30 people. Well, maybe not even that. Only 7 of us were from my band era (late 80's early 90's). The university isn't exactly good at bringing people back. Such is the way of a commuter campus.
I also went to the Texas Renaissance Festival. I have a few pictures, so I'll post that later. It was a nice, sunny, cool day in Texas and I'm glad i got out of the house, even if I went alone.
Lord, Help me get through this week so I can see my baby...
